The toaster on the middle shelf had a picture of toast on the box. She stared at it for longer than made sense. Someone had taped a yellow clearance sticker over the price, and someone else had peeled that sticker halfway off, and the real number was worse. She put it in the cart anyway, then stood there with both hands on the cart's orange bar, not moving.
The rice cooker's bottom had a sticker where the wattage should have been printed - just a white square with 700W in ballpoint, someone's handwriting. She set it back on the shelf and it rocked once on its seam. The kettle's cord was braided copper the width of a shoelace, and she bent it gently between two fingers the way her mother used to test asparagus at the grocery store. She put the kettle in the cart next to the toaster, then took out her phone and looked at something, then put her phone away without doing anything.
The number had a decimal point and two zeros and she read it twice the way you read a word that stops making sense.
A man in an orange vest pushed a flatbed past her and she stepped back against the shelving and the kettle cord swung against the toaster box.
She locked the phone with her thumb and held it face-down against her thigh for a moment - then dropped it into her coat pocket.
She pushed the cart forward six feet and stopped in front of a row of hand mixers, all of them red, none of them in her hand.
She set the kettle on the belt first, then the induction plate, then the dented box with the FINAL SALE sticker peeling at one corner - then the mixer in its red-starburst box, and the cashier pulled each one across the glass with the flat of her hand without looking up. The number appeared before the last beep, green on the small screen, and Dara's mouth closed around the h of whatever she'd started to say. She stood with her debit card already out, held between two fingers - the edge of it pressing a white line into her fingertip.
The receipt was warm from the register and she held it flat against the steering wheel with both thumbs. Outside the windshield a cart corral sat under a sodium light, full of carts nobody'd returned all the way, handles sticking out at angles. She folded the receipt once, along a crease that wasn't there, and the paper fought her. Then she set it on the toaster box in the passenger seat and looked at the two of them together - the folded white square and the cardboard toast.
The electrical tape had bubbled once from the heat and she'd pressed it back down with her thumb, and it held. The rice cooker box had a coffee ring on the top flap now, from when she'd used it as a shelf, and the cardboard had gone soft in the middle where the mug sat every morning. She'd written *RICE* on the side in marker at some point, as if she might forget - and the R had smeared before it dried.
The hand mixer's beaters left thin scratches on the inside of the bowl the first time she used it, and she ran her finger along one scratch the way you'd read braille, and it stopped just short of the center.
She'd taped the warranty card to the inside of the cabinet door with a single strip of masking tape, the card already curling at one corner, the 1-800 number printed so small she'd had to take her glasses off to read it closer.
The red cord she'd looped over the cabinet knob once - and now she always looped it there, and the knob had a pale groove in the paint where the cord sat.
The toaster had started cutting off early and she'd folded a business card in half and wedged it under the left foot to level it on the counter, and it had been there so long the card had gone soft and gray at the fold. She'd written the new wifi password on the back of it at some point, in pencil, and she could still read the numbers if she crouched down and tilted her head. The bread came out pale on one side and she'd learned to flip it herself at the halfway point - standing there with a dish towel over her shoulder, watching for the coil to go orange.
The induction plate's display had stuck on 350 for three weeks and she'd learned to knock the left corner twice with her knuckle, and it would cycle down to the right number, and she'd started doing it without thinking, the way you push a door that sticks. The bottom of the plate had a scorch mark from when she'd set it on a dish towel by accident - a brown oval the size of a playing card, and she'd flipped the plate over once to look at it and then set it back face-up the way it belonged. The power button's white dot had worn to almost nothing under her thumb, just a ghost of white at the center, and she pressed it now without looking, the way you press a light switch in the dark of your own house.
The kettle's lid had developed a rattle and she'd wedged a folded triangle of aluminum foil under the hinge - tight, and it had stopped, and now she always put the lid on with two hands the way you'd close something that mattered. A friend had come over for tea and reached for the kettle and Dara had said *I'll get it* before she could think of a reason. The friend had looked at her hand on the handle and not said anything, and the water came to a boil and they listened to it together, the lid quiet under the foil - and Dara poured.
The blender she hadn't bought sat in the back of the cabinet behind the rice cooker box, a gap where one would go, and she knew its dimensions the way you know a missing tooth with your tongue. She'd priced four of them on her phone over two months, screenshots saved in an album she'd titled *maybe*, the oldest one dated November - the price in the corner already changed. Her sister had asked what she wanted for her birthday and she'd said nothing, and then said socks, and the album still had seven pictures in it, all blenders, all red.
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